01/17/2014 Weigh in and then some

I had my second Weight Watchers meeting tonight. It was the first time in years and years I was anxious and excited to get on a scale. I wasn't let down, either. I lost 8.8 pounds. Great first week. I realize that the first few weeks are usually the honeymoon. But I am bound and determined to make it work this time. I am writing this blog, and not making it private - so I must triumph over this "disease: (obesity).
For lunch today, we ordered out. We do this a lot on Friday's. Since where I work we don't get breaks, well - let's say we have working breaks - we have to eat in between calls and crisis'. So when there are two of us, like most Friday's, we like to splurge a little. Today I had a turkey monterey sandwich. No sauces. And potato salad for a side. The potato salad was 8 points, the sandwich 7. Completely doable. In the future, when my point allotment is lower, the potato salad probably will no longer be an option. But, I do keep forgetting that I have the weekly 49 points that I can use. I did not use any of them last week. I keep thinking I'm saving them for something special, or a bad splurge day. Or I don't know what. It's like money in the bank. However, it does not carry over. What you do not use does not go into a savings account. That part kind of sucks, but I can see the rationale behind it. Talk about a binge that could set you back!! I definitely don't need any kind of set backs at all.
We ate out twice last week, and I still managed to make decent choices. Yay me!!
Feelings: I feel happy, tired, proud, frustrated. Go figure. I am happy I lost the weight. Happy with my choices lately. Proud of the progress I've been making. Tired from not getting enough sleep, or forgetting to wear my CPAP the past two nights. Frustrated with my husband. I'm not really sure why. On the flip side of the frustration, he is my biggest supporter. Making a huge effort to cook the kinds of things that I want to eat. Backing off on some of the cheese. Lightening up favorite dishes. Trying new lighter recipes he finds.

Since this blog is relatively new, I suppose I should write a bit about Stephen. Since I mention him and how his death has affected us all. On June 21st 2013, he went to a street dance in a town about 40 miles from home, about 20 miles from us. He had a designated driver lined up, his roommate. So, thinking his ride home was covered, he drank a lot of alcohol. Witnesses at the dance had differing stories. Some said he wasn't that bad, other's said he was falling down. They all agree that he told Josh he wanted to go just as soon as he finished his drink. So, Josh & his girlfriend thought they had enough time to sneak away before Stephen would be ready to leave. According to text messages, when Stephen went to his car, Josh was not there. Josh & his girlfriend decided to get high. This angered my son, he then got in his car and decided to drive himself. On his way home, he drove erratically, sometimes in the wrong lane. He then left the road, drove along the ditch on his side of the road, veering further into the ditch. At a point several hundred feet down from where he first left the road, he hit an embankment, causing his car to roll multiple times. landing upside down. The car then caught on fire. According to reports, the car was burning for quite a while before anyone saw it. When firefighters arrived, the car was fully engulfed. Once the fire was put out, they were unable to identify his car. In order to identify it, they had to cut it apart to get to any vin #'s. They were unable to identify my son's identity at the scene of the accident due to his body being too badly burned. When we were notified, the Sheriff and his Deputy told us that they weren't 100% sure it was our son yet, but based on the last registered owner of the cars vin #, and statements from witnesses at the dance and Stephen's roommate, they were 99% percent sure that it was him. They needed his dental information to send to the forensic lab to identify him. The county attorney said that she believed he was deceased before the fire started based on the fact that he had a very substantial head injury. But the autopsy report and death certificate came back as "thermal burns" as the primary, "smoke inhalation" the secondary causes of death.
York Man Dies in Fiery Crash
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http://www.yorknewstimes.com/news/victim-identified-in-fatality-accident/article_6dfae9de-dcd6-11e2-8f77-001a4bcf887a.html
http://www.yorknewstimes.com/family/obituaries/death-stephen-opfer-york-resident/article_110b6d28-dd55-11e2-8674-001a4bcf887a.html
One life, many losses