02/06/14 Weigh in day & Who Am I?

Today is my weekly weigh in. I sound just like I did last week. I hope I lost something. No matter how small, I just want a loss! The scale at home shows no loss, maybe even a little bit of a gain. I exercised for the first time since before Stephen's death. Behold - it did NOT kill me! I lived to blog about it. I need to make a habit out of it again, though. For some reason, I fear the scale today. I feel good. My clothes fit great. I feel thinner than I look - I am still stunned when I see my reflection. I don't always know who that is. Which is a good impression of how I feel about myself a lot of the time. Who am I? When I meet someone new, it seems that I am the kids' mom, or the babies' grandma, Kurt's wife, the dispatcher, the jailer, always something. But who am I really?? I remember trying to answer that question in therapy a few years back. It's really a hard question. I love to create. Greeting cards, scrap-booking, painting, drawing, "coloring" (stamping), riding atv's. I'd love to get to a place that I could go hiking. But, my husband is not a hiking fan. Riding atv's is very rewarding. You can go out in the back-country and see things you never would otherwise. Like eavesdropping on animals in their natural habitat, doing the things that they do while not feeling threatened. Camping is also good, thankfully my husband does like to camp. Especially if we are near electricity (hey - what do you expect, he's not a mountain man type). Who else am I?? I am responsible, honest, reliable, lazy (yep, I'm lazy). I am not good at domestic chores such as housekeeping, laundry, dishes. I enjoy reading, playing games on my phone or Kindle. I spend too much time on Facebook. Hmm.. All of that put together is a part of me. I am shy, almost to a fault. I come across as a real "B", but I'm not really. It's just so hard for me to get to know people.
So, back to it being weigh in day. It is so nerve wracking. The moment of truth..... So until after weigh in, fingers crossed!!!